At the end of 2015 I came across a blog post about picking “one little word” to focus on for the year. Last year I had two, strong and courageous, you might actually call that three… This year, I have two. Again. Because apparently I can’t follow the rules. 😉
At the beginning of December I saw the word “surrender” and I knew that that was my word. Since January 1st I have been forced to recognize just how much of my life I have not surrendered to God, how on a daily basis I struggle, in some areas I have been able to move forward a bit, but for the most part I struggle…maybe that should have been my word.
My husband got some stressful results from some blood work he had done, he was running around doing life with pneumonia and not being able to breathe (he has really bad asthma) and that opened my eyes to how much I struggle with surrendering fear. Fear of watching my husband die slowly from a horrifying disease, he is having more blood tests done in a couple of weeks, now that he is finally done with pneumonia and antibiotics. That showed me how much I struggle with letting go of the notion that I might have some control over my life or my husband’s, or our kids…I cannot stop my husband from dying, I cannot heal him, I cannot take any of it away from him. (Just so we are clear, nothing has been confirmed, more tests are being run!) But, I have no control over the genetic mutations he was born with!
Jesus tells us that we are to seek Him first. In Matthew 6 He talks about food, drink and clothes and how God knows what we need before we need it. We are to seek Him first. His righteousness. His kingdom. FIRST.
Just a few chapters later (Matthew 10:38-39), Jesus talks to us about taking up our cross and losing our life for His sake. These two, very small, sections of Scripture are like a big slap in the face to my fear. To my worry. To my plans. To MY , whatever you want to put in there. I do not own my life; I make choices, hopefully, as a reflection of my love for God and desire to have Him first in everything. There are consequences to my choices, both positive and negative, there will always be consequences. This is not necessarily a bad thing.
He, “gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.” 2 Timothy 1:7. Because of this I am purposefully working on surrendering my fear, my control, my marriage, my role as mom, wife, friend, daughter, sister, auntie. I am surrendering my life to my God because He loves me. Because His best for my life is far beyond anything that I could ever have hoped for. His love for my husband, my children and myself is bigger than I could imagine.
Because my God is good. He has chosen me and has called me to put on as His chosen one, “holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.” Colossians 3:12-14 (emphasis added).
<He LOVES you too!! He created you for a beautiful purpose. He chose you.>
Does that not sound like someone you would love to be around? Someone who you would love to be? Today, will you join me in surrendering yourself? Asking God to help you put on all of those things listed above. That we would put on His love. His humility. His kindness. His compassion. Let the person He created us to be SHINE.
Verse 15 says, “Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts.” (emphasis mine). Let His peace rule. Let Him rule.